surprised by joy

lethargy--beauty

These days a terrible lethargy seems to have swallowed me! It is: waking up to find that everyone has left the house, or worse has left the house and returned... lazing around on cushions watching swimmers, divers, gymnasts, shooters, archers, badminton players... playing othello and losing to the brightest cutest sparkliest six-year old ever over and over again and again... and so, endlessly procrastinating many things that must get done very very soon!

It's also increasingly lengthy phone conversations, some filled with warmth, others not as nice, but all rather roundabout and unpurposeful. It's the many postponed meetings, walking round and round places doing nothing much, thinking nothing much, buying nothing much... I must must snap out of it!

I think it was Planned that I should have handed in my accommodation application late and not be guaranteed a place to stay. Because it's the one thing that's shoved me into taking action, when all the prodding and nagging I've been getting didn't. I might still be homeless when I reach London- a very scary thought- and presently have no backup plan, but at least I've got together a whole list of numbers to call and will call asap and am praying hard that I will be allocated a place anyway. And having been punished for delaying my visa application (I rushed down today only to find that the college's acceptance letter lacks a few crucial words and that this rendered my attempt to apply by this week useless) I shall not be idle anymore.

The gifts this rainy afternoon were, a queue number pulled out of the machine way before I reached, a lift to the expo warehouse sales after and then all the way across the island back home as it continued pouring, and the friendly ladies at the visa app centre (as compared to the brusque, cold ones at xx medical)

Which reminds me of how beautiful the VISA ad on its being the official card of the Games is, the one with enchanting synchronised swimmers, and unlike some other beautiful ads, this actually properly promotes the VISA brand.

One last (belated, unrelated) thought, my parents have been married twenty years now, their anniversary passed quietly a few days back. Perhaps, maybe, someday I'll know what love like theirs is.

posted by Shi Ning @ 16:45